I never told you, but I did

I said things I didn't mean, but I did.
I went on and I did what I shouldn't.
There's things about myself I don't like to pride.
But there's only so much that a human can endure.
Forgive doesn't mean forget, but we still rather forgeting over forgiving.
It's easiar. Is it? I don't know... Maybe.
All those seconds we spend - I say spend and not waste - wondering, imagining, trying to guess what cold be and wasn't. In any way, we only have ourselves to blame, even when we can always find someone to feel guilty for us.
Sometimes it's best not to say anything and sometimes it's better to say what you want. But which is which? That can get me thinking for a little while...
I said what I said because I felt it, but it's never real if you don't feel it too.
The hard part is, I don't know if you were listening...